Snow ... in OCTOBER!?

It has been kind of snowing off and on. Surprisingly it has been great! Cold, but neat. The flakes this morning were really big and fluffy; it felt like Christmas time! I was pretty excited. I know a lot of people have mixed feelings about snow, but, I love it!


I have another violin student. This lady is an adult and she's nice. I'm excited to have another student!! I think I have also decided to play in the pit orchestra for the high school's rendition of "Hello Dolly". I know it'll be great fun! I am still so ecstatic that I am playing my violin so much more now. It really does make me more happy than anything else!! It is the greatest feeling of acomplishment when your student understands what you're trying to teach, or is excited about learning!


Anyway, just wanted to share the beautiful picture of the flower thing with snow on it. Good night!

Home.

I love how gorgeous my family's house and property is during the fall. I have definitely missed it! No matter where Alan and I end up, home will always be where mom and dad are. I know it's weird, but I am such a home person. I am definitely not one to like change. I adjust eventually...BUT, it's still hard. I love home, and I have missed this valley sooo much.


Brittney has learned to make a new horrid noise! It sounds like she's in pain, but the thing is, she just wants attention. She has finally learned that all she has to do is scream annoyingly and someone will pick her up. Haha, it's sooo cute though. She is talking a lot now too. I have been trying to get video recordings of her growing and making milestones. It's amazing how fast they grow!


Tonight during bath she about gave me a heartattack! I was soaping her up and she slipped and went head/face first into the water and hit her head on the bottom of the sink. I instantly grabbed her soooo fast and brought her out of the water and was freaking out. She didn't cough or cry and I was sooooo worried! I didn't know what to do. I called mom into the kitchen to help and was like, MOMMMM!!! Help!!! Finally she coughed a little, eyes watering, and then started to cry. Man, it was terrifying. I've decided that's just one of those rights of passages that us as mom's go through. Man, I was soooo happy she was fine! But man oh man I never want to go through that again!


Each day as I watch her grow and dress her in other clothes, she looks a lot like my old pictures. It kinda makes me sad and happy at the same time. I love her soooo much!! But yes, sometimes she looks exactly like me. Having her kinda makes me realize that I want to know more about my past, but I don't know. I still don't think that I am quite ready for that journey yet. I have some other things to work out before I try and tackle that. Haha. But don't we all?


Anyhow, I am going to get some more food, I am finally hungry again. I wasn't feeling well and couldn't really eat, but now I'm starving! Anyhow, I love you all much! Have a good night!!! xoxo

coffee + catching up with [best] friends + dinner = acts of spontaneity

I love this girl! Between her and Heather, I am one VERY happy mom, wife, girl. Ahh, she's the best. She definitely brings out the fun and good in me. I don't knonw what I'd do without her : )


Anyhow, I met up with Robert for the first time in EVER and it was great! Him, me, and Maegs sat at Starbucks talking about everything and some for about three hours. It was great catching up with Robert. I love my friends. It was just an all around great day. After that, Maegs and I dropped off the check that Alan's parents were bugging him about today. Oh man, that was just ughhh, I don't know. Whatever. I made Maegs give it to her--Barb. Anyway, after that was done, we went and got Chinese food, yum!


We sat there for a good hour or so talking and catching up some more. Afterwards as we were heading to her car, I saw the new tattoo place and was going in to check prices and such...well, that turned into me getting one. Ahh, I was soooo nervous and such, but I absolutely LOVE it. Everytime I look at it I get more and more excited. It's a little birdie made out of musical symbols. The "f" or Forte notation is her wings, a fermata is her eye, a crescendo sign is her beak/mouth, a slur or tie is her body, and a carrot accent mark is her feet. I'm still deciding on a name for her. But she's definitely a girl! Yes, I'm naming my tattoo. Anyhow, I was petrified, but it was awesome. It didn't hurt that bad. There was a little part as he was going over my bone that hurt a little, but I kept telling myself...I went through labor, I had an epidural, this is nothing! And compared to having a baby, it really was nothing. LOL.


I absolutely LOVE it. Which is a good thing, but I really do. It's sooo cute and perfect. And it's not a treble clef or something like that. Ahh, I'm sooo happy and giddy about it! But yes, it was awesome. I figured I'd do that, lol. It was great having Maegs there. She is amazing!! And it only took about 3 minutes...maybe 5. Ahh, I'm still happy : )


Ahh, so my phone is in Maegs' car so I won't get to talk to Alan for a while, but it'll be alright. I'll email him and tell him how much I LOVE him. He's amazing. I miss him a lot and I can't wait for him to get back. Plus I really want to sit down and talk to him. Ooo, random side note, I got Brittney a Winnie the Pooh walker thing that matches her swing. She's just a tad short/not quite strong enough to walk/or stand. But she's getting there. I figure in a couple weeks she should be able to touch the floor. I also got her a piano thing she can kick and it lights up. She is slowly starting to learn about toys. She's still a little young, but she's growing so fast, that yea : )


Anyhow, here's a picture of the finished product! Have a great night everyone. Maegs, I LOVE YOU!!!! xoxo

Shopping = Love

Today I went to Boise with my mom and had a blast!!! It has been soooo long since I've actually gotten to buy new clothes. I was soooo happy. I went to Victoria's Secret and found a couple bra's I liked since I'm almost done nursing. OMG, it was the coolest feeling to be able to get a bra and have it fit! I got four and it was definitely my most expensive purchase today. But it is so worth it! I think I have FINALLY found a bra that I absolutely LOVE, which is amazing. It is very comfortable.


I did good on not spending A LOT. I spent quite a bit, but refrained from a lot of things. There was a Dooney and Burke purse I really wanted, and a Coach purse that was GORGEOUS, but they were around $300 so I said NO. Haha. I will save up my teaching money for something like that. I got some great stuff. I got a sweatshirt from AE, and a pair of bright pink skinny courdoroy's, a sweatshirt from Aeropostale and a couple t-shirts, a dress shirt for orchestra, and a lot of Brittney clothes. It felt great to buy some new clothes! Even my mom made the comment that it was time for some new clothes.


I got Brittney some really cute coveralls. It's great because they snap in the crotch. Pants are a pain to take on and off. LOL. She also got this ADORABLE hat with bunny ears on top of it. Ah, I can't wait to get some pictures up. She is growing rapidly and is adorable. She can ALMOST sit too!! It is amazing how fast they really do grow. Her hair is growing back in too which is such a great relief. Her hair in the back is SOOOO long! Her two little teeth are popping through and showing more and more each second it seems. We are almost done with the nursing. I have lasted this long and it's great. I am just getting to the point where I want/need to have some away time and have other people be able to feed her.


I finally made the changes to my FAFSA so hopefully I'll get some financial aid? Ugh, I really, really hope so, but am not sure how things work out? I need to go up and talk to the financial aid place, lol.


Right now I am watching A Walk To Remember, oh how I love this movie! Now that I'm back, it seems like everyone is aking me to do things...musically that is. I got asked to play for the high school musical and yea, not sure. I said I'd think about it and get back to her. I just don't know if I have time for this! Especially since I don't have a vehicle I would be at my parent's mercy and dad is getting tired of driving me around and waiting for mee. But now that I'm thinking, I don't know if I can play...I think it MIGHT conflict with an OES concert in Pendleton, but I'll look and see.


But seriously, today was great!! It was awesome going shopping with my mom. Brittney is going to look so cute in her outfits too! I'm going to do a photo shoot with the new camera soon too. We are going to take some halloween pictures too. We're going to either find a pumpkin patch or buy a pumpkin and put her next to it, but who knows. Babies never cooporate, lol. Oh well. I'm going to try really hard to get some good pictures. I will be posting more pictures soon too : )


Tomorrow I am possibly hanging out with Maegan and am also going into town to a piano concert and the OMTA (Oregon Music Teacher's Association) Competition is at EOU so mom and I were thinking about listening to some of the performers. I need to practice tomorrow too so I think I'll do that before we go into town? I don't know. But I am very excited none the less. I am pretty stoked to keep practicing and getting the Symphonie Espagnole (1st movement) better. I've contacted Mio and she's excited to play it with me. She's the staff accompianist and apparently she's awesome!


Anyway, I'm exhausted and am going to watch my movie. I'll talk to you all soon!!! And I PROMISE to be posting more pictures soon : ) Good night, xoxo

Camera, Orchestra, Music.

So I got a new digital camera! I am SOOOO happy to have another camera. OMG, it's amazing. It was on sale too and is great quality. The sales lady said that SONY makes the best digital cameras. It's 12.1 mega pixles and has a 4x optical zoom. I'm loving it already! And it's amazingly quick with the shutter speed which is crucial if you're trying to catch Brittney laughing or smiling.


Orchestra went well tonight, am exhausted and my back is sore, but other than that it's no biggie. I can actually play the music decently. Haha, I really should actually practice it. Luckily it's not too bad. Okay, so I was enthused to write a blog, but now I suddenly got VERY tired. I guess I'll write more tomorrow. Good night!

Brittney, Spike, and cool autumn days.

Brittney did wonderfully yet again! Two days in a row where she's slept through the night, woo hoo!! She's been getting up just before my alarm and eats. Then she goes back to sleep until we leave for town and sometimes falls asleep on the ride in. She is getting bigger by each feeding it seems!! Sometimes it seems like her output doesn't keep up with her input, lol. We have a very healthy baby girl, that's for darned sure!! Right now, she's at my feet playing/scratching at the wall. It's a new texture and makes a different sound. On the way into town today, she found the tag on her blankie for the first time...boy was she amused by that! If only we as adults took the time to look around and appreciate the small things in life, I think we would be a lot happier. Babies are so happy with any new thing they learn or encounter. I too am amused with the little things, but they don't excite me near as much. I think that I will work on appreciating all the small things in life we take for granted!


Spike is such a goof ball, seriously! I can't even BEGIN to explain how weird this dog is. Last night he wouldn't go pee at all! I let him out soooo many times for at least 3-5 minutes at a time. I even was walking around with him. He wouldn't go. Finally I took him to bed and we went to sleep. This morning he was DYING to get outside. Normally I kind of have to push him out the door...not this morning. He sprinted so fast to the grass and relieved himself for a good 20 seconds, haha. Silly stubborn dog. Then this morning when we got to the office, he was super wound up. I let him outside and there's a long gravel driveway behind my mom's office. He sprints out and runs down the driveway, then back...looks at me, and does it again! Haha, it was the funniest thing I've ever seen. Seriously, my dog is a goober.


Today is a lot cooler than I was expecting it to be. Ahh, I was NOT prepared when I got dressed this morning for the chill air. I think it might rain too, not what I wanted today after yesterday's glorious 60 degree crisp day. Oh well, it is La Grande; we've been known to have rain, snow, sun, AND hail all in one day. It does smell amazing outside and driving up towards campus looks beautiful! When I get a camera--possibly today--I will take pictures. The leaves are changing and it just looks amazing. I can't even put it into words.


I was quite sad I wasn't up for the meteor shower. I love astronomy and star gazing. It was definitely my favorite science class in high school. Oh well, I'm still young, hopefully someday in the semi-near future I will see another one.


Anyhow, I need to go to the store...AGAIN...to get more formula...AGAIN...before I forget. I hope everyone has a beautiful Wednesday. Ahh, it's almost Halloween and I'm pretty stoked!!! Not that I'm doing anything, but it'll still be fun. Anyways, love you all and miss you much! xoxo

I love Alan.

I had a great conversation with Alan tonight. It wasn't as long as I would've liked it to be, but talking is better than nothing at all. We are working through all the drama and curve balls we've been thrown the past week. If anything I really believe it's making us stronger. I am feeling much better about our relationship and everything as a whole. I know for sure that we are going to be alright and we really can overcome any obstacle thrown our way.


I'm sure there will be many more disagreements, frustrations, issues, and drama in the future. That's life and marriage. If there wasn't work involved, then something wouldn't be right. I am happy that we work things out and even happier that we learn and grow from our experiences.


Brittney is growing rapidly still, not that I was expecting her growth to hault. She is definitely pushing 18 pounds already, if not over. She is such a cute chub-a-lub! Yesterday when my mom was giving her a bath, she rolled over during bath...completely! Her face was under water and everything. It was pretty scary! She was screaming, my mom was half paniced, and I was like, omg...! She was alright, but she turned pretty red/purple from screaming so loud.


She is learning who is who. She is starting to notice who is a stranger and who is familar. It was almost over night that she went from letting anyone hold her, to crying if someone new held her. It's kinda neat to know that she finally recognizes who you are. You really are MOM or GRANDMA. She is talking so much more now too and even giggles out loud! Giggling out loud still isn't provoked by tickling, but more by funny faces or being tossed up in the air. I can only toss her up in the air so many times--5 or 6--then my arms feel like jelly, lol. She is FINALLY takinga bottle, although it's more of a sippy cup kind. We took the nipple of the NUK 6+ months trainer cups and she loves those nipples! She drinks the formula right down. It's funny, she's pretty picky about the formula. It has to be fresh, otherwise she won't drink it. It's actually really cute, although we're going to have to start watching how much we're wasting because that stuff is NOT cheap!


Her two bottom teeth are coming in even more! It's really exciting. Although not so much if you stick your finger in her mouth...she has no hard feelings about chomping down on it, and hard! She is fascinated with her hand/wrist/fingers. She will hold up her hand in front of her face and twist her hand back and forth almost like a wave. She just stares in awe; it's like the coolest thing she's ever seen. Then she'll move one finger at a time and kind of smile like, "Yup, I did that!" It's the cutest thing! She is rolling over even more now and can almost prop herself up on her hands! She is going to be crawling sooner than we realize I think. I don't know if I'm ready for that stage...yikes! Then we're really going to have to keep the house picked up since EVERYTHING goes in her mouth. Apparently I didn't put things in my mouth...Brittney does.


Spike is doing well. There are many days when my mom wants to kill him because he kinda is still having intentional accidents in the house. He hates the cold weather, wind, or rain...we'll take him out to go potty, walk around for a good three minutes and he won't do anything. The second we walk in the door and turn our heads, he's pooped in the house. Ahhh, it's sooo frustrating. Basically the dog is just stubborn. You would think he'd learn how to just poop and pee really fast and sprint back inside instead of wandering around the cold for minutes. Haha, stubborn dog!


Anyhow, I have to get my theory homework done before it gets too much later. Apparently there's supposed to be a big meteor shower tonight from 1-3 AM because we'll be catching the tail of Haley's Comet!! Ahh, I think that's awesome, I'm hoping to catch a glimpse. Love you all much and miss you very much baby cakes. You're the best, and I love you!!! xoxo

Lack of sleep.

Sadly, my violin hasn't received much love lately. Ahh, I really need to be practicing more than I have been. I've been up late because I haven't been able to sleep, and Brittney is teething so she is up/fussy quite a bit. Overall though she's still wonderful. I love her soooo much!!! Ahh, I can't wait for Alan to get back. I love him and miss him so much. Our relationship has definitely been tested these past few days. Luckily we are still doing wonderful and talk is a wonderful, beautiful thing. Apparently they had a rocket attack the other night and EVERYONE woke up except for my hubby, haha. No wonder he would never wake up to help me with Brittney. Anyhow, enough of this, I'm pooped and have more stuff to do tomorrow. Good night! xoxo

Orchestra, School, Excitement, Friends!!!

I have one of the coolest best friends in the world! Yup, that's the girl in the picture with me, Heather Luther! Oh my gosh, she is amazing. And our little kiddies, Drew and Brittney, are awesome! We had a fun photo shoot when she came to La Grande on Sunday. It looks like a gorgeous day, but in all reality it was FREEZING!! The wind was blowing and man oh man I was soooo cold. We managed to still look beautiful and take cheesy pictures. I am so thankful for her!! Seriously, she makes life so much better. She is the greatest and I just love her!


Onto other news, orchestra is going well. I really missed playing sooo much! I am still principal second, and hopefully soon I will be principal second of Oregon East Symphony in Pendleton. And to be entirely honest, I've been wanting that position for three or so years, lol. I'm really excited because that is a paid position. Although it's only $30 a rehearsal, it's still soemthing! Plus I love playing, so what better job am I going to find? Probably nothing. We are playing some pretty neat stuff in Grande Ronde Orchestra; however, this concert is probably my least favorite. Our cello soloist backed out or something so sadly we have to fill the gap with aria's. Ugh. Not entirely my favorite concert, but whatever.


I aced my first theory quiz!! That was really exciting. I was going to be sooo pissed if I didn't ace it, lol. I would be pretty upset. But I did, so there theory quiz!! Haha. I understand what we're doing now, but I get confused so easily when I'm rewriting things in ideally the same meter, but not. Not that that makes any sense...basically I get confused how to rewrite things from 6/4 to 6/8 or 3/4 to 3/2 things like that. I'm sure that makes absolutely NO sense to those of you who aren't music people, lol.


I have another awesome friend at EOU so that's great. Naomi...she's great. She's from Pendleton and I've actually known her for a while, but yea, it's great to actually hang out with her. It's actually great to hang out with anyone for that matter. Haha. But yea, we're playing a duet together and I think it'll be pretty awesome! I'm excited.


On extreme news, Barb was threatening to take me to court for visitation rights of Brittney. She drunk dialed my mom's office on Saturday and left this huge message. OMG, it was HORRIBLE. Man oh man, I was sooo upset. She was talking very slowly and referred to Brittney as her daughter. She was saying how she had mail for us and that she wanted to see Brittney at least once a week for at least an hour under Bill's supervision. She said if I didn't do this she would take things farther...meaning she'd try and get a court order. Anyhow, I emailed her and told her off and said she needs to stop calling my mom's office and such. And that I didn't appreciate she lying to me and Alan. When Alan asked her/confronted her about it, she denied it and said she didn't remember calling. The voice mail is saved so there is proof she called. Anyhow, I told her off again, since last time she didn't listen. Well today I stopped by to pick up our mail because I got to thinking there might be something important there. When I rang the door bell, Barb didn't even come to the door, she hid. Bill answered, and was a complete jack ass. I asked if he had our mail and he looked at me and was like, "We don't have your mail." I asked if he was sure, and he said, "Ya, nothing is here for you." And was just sooo rude, so I was like whatever. Basically I'm NEVER going back over there. I don't care anymore. We will deal with this later when Alan gets back, but I refuse to be treated like that. I have been busy lately and haven't had time to stop by between classes, rehearsals and practicing. Anyhow, the whole ordeal is ridiculous! I just don't know anymore.


I won't go back over there until Alan gets back or visits. I just don't want to deal with it and I don't think it's fair. I know I haven't been entirely nice, but Barb hasn't done anything to help the relationship herself. I have always told her nicely to not do certain things, but she never listens. I told her that I wouldn't bring Brittney by if she was still drinking and she told me she wasn't. Um...her message said otherwise, but ahh. I just have to let things go. I will just not worry anymore and let Alan deal with it.


In terms of getting a vehicle, I don't know. I am hoping for the November 7th paycheck, but we'll see. I don't know, but I'm really hoping I'll get it then so I can travel to Pendleton and play in OES. I don't know what I want anymore, I've gotten to the point where I just want any vehicle, lol. I don't know, I'm just trying not to think about that either.


Alan and I are doing great even with the drama going on between us. I miss him, he misses me, but we're doing good. We talk as much as possible, and that's nice. We are still dealing with bills, but who knows. I know that everything will be alright. I love him! I sent him a care package, and then the next day I sent him a card. I feel pretty cool! Haha.


I got my awesome leg warmers and my cool Halloween costume. I'm so excited for Halloween! I'm actually not going to be very skanky. I'm pretty sure I have shorts shorter than this dress/outfit. Oh well, it still looks awesome! Plus, I wasn't going for skanky! Ha. Anyhow, I am very excited for a new day. I should get some sleep, it's 1:24 AM and I have to get up in the morning and go down to Grandma's house to spend some time with them with Brittney. Apparently she cried all day today. She is suddenly getting used to who she knows and who she doesn't know. She now cries with strangers or people she isn't used to. I feel horrible for my Grandparents, so it was a slight wake up call that I should be spending more time there with Brittney. Oh yea, her doctor's appointment went great! She is a very healthy 17 lbs, 8 oz and 26 1/4 inches! She's a big girl. The doctor said she is very healthy and is growing great.


Have a great night everyone! I am looking forward to what the rest of the week has planned for me and Brittney and me and my violin. Hopefully we'll have a good relationship this week, not the usual love/hate one! Haha, yes, I talk about me and my violin as one. Well...we kinda are! Anywho, I'm exhausted and my eyes are drooping. Plus this blog is getting to be a short novel. Good night! xoxo

Swine Flu!

Wow, so I know that Swine Flu has been pushed overboard a little, but after hearing about all the deaths, now that's just scary!!! My brother is definitely getting a shot since my dad heard about the 15 year old girl who died. I know it's rare, but still, the fact that people--children--are dying, is scary!! I am definitely worried about Brittney, but she is too young for the vaccienes.


Anyhow, she had her doctor's appointment today! She weighs 17 pounds, 8 ounces!!! Funny, we're watching a tv thing on the news and a baby was uninsurable because he was four months old and 17 pounds...um...that's how big Brittney is!? Haha, I just found it humorous. Luckily she's covered under Alan's insurance, lol. She is 26 and a quarter inches long! She's such a big girl!


She doesn't feel too well because of the shots. She's very fussy.Anyway, well dinner is ready, I'll write more at some other point!!

Darned Facebook!

Call me an addict, I don't really care, but Restaurant City on Facebook has NOT been letting me on at all today. I'm a little stressed, I wanted to get my free ingredient, AND I really need to feed my people, lol. Ahhh!!! I know, it's really sad and pathetic, but what can I say, it's what I do. And don't judge because I know there are some other Facebook game addicts out there too : )



In other news, I have a violin student!!!!! I am very excited. Her name is Farrell, I think, lol. Anyhow, she's 12 years old and from Baker City. She is the sweetest little girl ever! She seems eager to learn and such, so that's cool. Unfortunately her previous teacher has done a lot of damage. Ugh, I don't understand why teachers can't teach good posture and technique also, how hard is that!? I thought that was part of your job AS a teacher.



Basically, she doesn't know how to hold her violin up properly, or hold her bow. Also, her previous teacher would play everything for her, but not require her to get the CD that goes with the pieces she's working on. On top of that, she would write in ALL of the fingerings on EVERY piece. That is NOT acceptable, and I told my student that I don't want that anymore. We will work on things and I will tell her what I want her to do.


I am helping out with the youth orchestra, which should really be called the beginning orchestra or something else because all three of the cellists are adults. And then there are two ladies who are also adults who play violin. Anyhow, back to the point...the girl I'm working with, well her teacher is playing in the orchestra too to "help them out." Argh, she drives me crazy!!! I had to constantly talk to my student and work with her. I told her what I wanted her to do in terms of her orchestra music for next week and her previous teacher chimed in and said, "Oh, well we're going to work on it in Baker. We'll have a group lesson." I was thinking, omg, I don't want her to continue working with my student!!! I am never going to break her bad habits if she keeps working with this lady! I have to talk to Lisa, my teacher, and ask her what I should do.



I just feel terrible for the little girl because she really wants to learn and she's so bright. I just hope I can get her on the right path of good technique, posture, and sound. I know I can, it's just going to be interesting to see how long it takes. It doesn't help that her previous teacher drives me INSANE. She is just one of those people that rubs you the wrong way. She kind of thinks she's a lot better than she is, and on top of that, her students are not all that great!!!


On a completely different note, fiddle ensemble was pretty good today. I didn't freak out when it was time to improvise on our chords for a jig. I was actually kind of excited to try some things and see what worked out and what didn't. It was kind of hard when we switched time signatures, but it wasn't terribly bad. Brittney did good in class. She was only a little fussy, so that's good. She was even trying to talk / sing along when people were playing. She was matching pitches too; although I think it was more on accident than anything. It was cool none the less.


Alan has been pretty busy with work. We still haven't been able to work out a set schedule of when to talk regularly. It definitely makes things hard, but so far we're doing alright. We at least send each other two or three emails a day so that's good. I missed his call tonight and I was just so upset! Especially since his voicemail was very sad and there wasn't even an "I love you" in it. I emailed him and told him to call me back, but sadly he couldn't. It's hard having busy nights with music rehearsals. I know we're fine, but it's still hard.



He told me he didn't call the other day because the room where the internet and phones were was shut down. They keep getting bomb threats and such which is really scary!! I am very worried about him, but I'm sure everything will be alright. At least that is what I have to tell myself, otherwise I start to think of all the bad that COULD happen. I just stay positive and take each day as it comes.



It is so nice being back in school though. I feel like I have some sense of freedom, especially since I get some time away from Brittney. She is growing up so fast, but I feel like I still have some growing up of my own to do. I love her more than anything else, but it is great to get away. Even if it's only for an hour or two. I am so happy to be around people that are my age. This last year in Virginia was great the last four months. The first part I was there was really hard. I didn't really know anyone, and I basically just sat at home. It was tough. I made some amazing friends, but sadly it was as I was leaving.



I am loving seeing all my friends here though. They are all such wonderful people. Lisa Cargill has been so wonderful as to watch Brittney when my family isn't. It's great having such an awesome support group here too. I love being so close to Heather and Drew!! Having lunch dates with Maegan is awesome too!! It almost feels as though we're back in high school...but wayy cooler than that now : ) It just seems as though there isn't a care in the world. I have the greatest friends here, and the best husband and a beautiful daughter.

Halloween is quickly approaching and I am pretty excited!! Brittney is going to be a cheerleader mainly because mom bought the outfit, and it's easy. Plus, it's not like she's actually going tick-or-treating. I think I'm actually going to dress up too! I am thinking about being a "sexy sports ref". Although it is going to be a modified costume. The outfit itself will be down to my knees just because I'm so short. I'm wearing tennis shoes versus heels, black tights, and a tank top underneath the outfit itself. Although this isn't set in stone yet at all. Heather and I are trying to think up of something to do for Halloween. We are for sure getting pictures with our kiddies, since it's their first Halloween!!!

We were thinking about finding a low key, friends that we know, kid friendly party. HAHA, yea right, but we were thinking. I don't even think that I'll go out, but who knows. Heather, Brittney, Drew, Nayt, and I might just end up going out to dinner together. We'll all be dressed up. Since Heather and Nayt are 21 already, they can just order drinks. But they are planning on driving back home to Baker that night, so they are planning on being responsible. Plus, they have Drew. Same goes for me, I wouldn't do anything stupid because I'm a mommy!!


My 21st is coming up in 54ish days I think? I don't remember, but I do know it's under 60 now!! I am definitely stoked, although it will be pretty lame and uneventful. As always, I have music conflicts during my birthday and birthday weekend. I have orchestra rehearsal ON my birthday, then that weekend is the holiday music festival concert...Saturday AND Sunday...bleh. Oh well, it is definitely for the better. Even so, I wouldn't go out and get plastered. That is NOT what I want to do. I think I am more wanting to go out and buy something because I can. That is always a horrible reason to do something, but I want to be carded. I remember when I turned 18 I bought a scratch-it lottery ticket and a cigar. I felt so cool to be carded. I never smoked the cigar because I didn't have any desire to, and I had no idea how to light the dumb thing. With the scratch-it, I think I won five bucks, lol.



Brittney is rolling over almost completely now! Her arm only gets stuck every once in a while. Okay, every time she does it. Some of the times she actually figures out how to get it out. She is growing up so fast!!! I can't believe it. She still won't take a bottle which has its upsides and downsides. I know that breast milk is AMAZING for her, but at the same time I kind of want some freedom. On top of that, winter is coming and I want to be able to wear sweatshirts, or just shirts in general. I don't want to have to worry about if I can get to my boob to feed her or not, lol. Ah, the joys of motherhood.


She is eating more solid foods, thus very stinky diapers. Man oh man, they are foul!!! They are sooo bad!! They're even starting to be different colors, lol, and are starting to have some solid chunks in there. That was probably a TMI moment, but whatever, lol. She talks a lot now too. And she giggles! I love it when she giggles and smiles. It melts your heart like nothing else. Unfortunately she has been waking up a few times at night to eat, weird, but true. I think she might be growing, but who knows. They're always growing. That is part of the reason I am writing this. I want to clear my head so I can sleep, and she'll be waking up here shortly to eat again, lol.



She gets her next round of shots on Monday the 12th. Poor baby girl. Luckily I'm having my mom come with me since she doesn't work. Then Brittney can spend the day at home relaxing and doesn't have to be drug around town or class. Hopefully everything will be fine. I'm sure it will. She did great with her first round. She just slept a lot. Hopefully that'll be the case this time too.



Anyhow, I am getting tired---finally! It seems like it takes me a while to fall asleep, but I feel like my mind is clear so I can. I love you all and thanks for reading!!!



xoxo

Moodiness....GAGH

I am beyond cranky today. I don't know why, but I'm soooo ahh! I talked to Alan tonight, but I was just soooo stressed out and such. Ah, I don't know. I think it might be the distance? Although I don't know. I guess I'm still stressing about our unpaid bills and ugh, everything is just piling up.



Brittney is growing so rapidly! I can't even believe it. She is so adorable and I just love her so much! I miss Alan, and I'm sure she does too, but she's being very well taken care of. I love Alan so much!!! Ahh I miss him. I am so cranky! I think I'm PMSing, blah. I am sooo cranky, ughhh....And obviously I keep repeating myself.



I still have a ridiculous stuffy nose, ah, I hate having stuffy noses. They're the worst. I continue to shove tissue up my poor nostrils and yea, it's not pretty. I have found that my spelling/typing is so horrible lately. Spike is adorable. He hates the cold. I'm totally just babbling yet again about absolutely nothing.



Sadly I am still moody. Ugh, I think I'm just going to enjoy The O.C. Season 2 haha. Well I'm gonna go for now. Much love!!!



xoxo

Afghanistan....Fall...Caramel Macchiatto's...School!

Alan FINALLY got a flight into Afghanistan! He is leaving...well he is in flight now! I am soooo happy!! Man, for a while we were worried that he wouldn't ever get there. But he said it was like a four hour flight. He's doing great though! I'm so happy. I love him to death!!!



I had a great day with Heather and Drew today. I love them to death!!! But yes, today was wonderful. It was the longest I have EVER been away So I am totally side tracked and don't feel like writing anymore now...ttyl!