Alan is gone...gone out of the states and off to Afghanistan. I didn't realize how hard it would be....now that he's actually gone it's kinda scary. You don't realize how much you take for granted, for example texting whenever! Now that he's somewhere in Europe we can't text. I miss him already. I am worried sick just because I can't talk to him whenever I want to. I can't text or call. It's still really weird. The whole situation still seems so unreal. I miss him so much! I didn't think it would be this hard, but it's kinda hitting me now.
Luckily I have the best friends in the world that will be there for me. And my family is being awesome, so I know I'll be alright. I still can't believe he's gone. Alan is actually gone. Wow. I don't even know what to think. I miss him already! Ahhh. I hope that time will go by fast. I am hoping he'll be back for Christmas. I can last that long...it is only 85ish days away.
I can't wait to start class. It will give me something to do and keep me busy. I told Alan I would stop worrying about a vehicle, but ah, I can't wait. I really need one. Walking around everywhere sucks. Oh well, it's good exercise. But it's getting colder and, ahh, okay, gotta stop worrying. Anyhow, I still can't believe he's gone.
I have theory tomorrow...eh...still my least favorite music class. Oh well, I'm still excited to get back. I am hoping to do a lot of practicing this year...but we'll see. Life always seems to get in the way. I want everything to go well. I am hoping to get my GPA back up, it's really bad right now. I am exhausted so I think I'm going to watch some One Tree Hill and await Alan's call...although I might just have to wait and see/hope he leaves a voice mail. I love you all so much! Thanks for reading : )
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Hey babe, you are a strong woman and you can handle this, though its not going to be easy. I am just a phone call and 45 min drive away! lol I love you and I am prayin' for Alan, but he'll be fine. Just focus on you and Brittney. Now is your time to shine, because Alan needs to know your happy or he'll be misrable over there, so even if your not, you have to pretend for him. But it will go by so quick. I mean has it really already been 4 1/2 months since Brit was born?? :)
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