Somehow, a friendship that I thought ment something has ended. It ended abruptly with no prior signs or hints. I guess I am hurt, shocked, numb, and just don't care. I don't know how to explain it. All I know is that I am more in love with Alan as I ever have been. I don't know, something has gone off in my mind and it was like...*I have the best husband ever and I love him* ...yea, it was something like that.
Even though one friendship came to an end, I have found a new, even better friendship. [Besides the one I am finding in my hubby] It's strange how friendships occur. I have known this person since our freshman year at EOU. We lived down the hall from each other, but we never really talked. We exchanged words, but other than that, nothing too exciting. Recently, we have become really good friends! It's amazing having another person to talk to and such. We hang out and motivate each other to study, stay focused, and work out. Strange, but true. We are definitely good influences on each other.
We talk about everything! We ask each other for advice, gossip, babble about nothing, watch South Park, eat random food, text about absolutely nothing, and just hang. I have missed having a friend like that. Alan and I have also been getting along really well. Not that we have been having issues, but I feel like we're communicating much better.
This sounds crazy, but even though the distance sucks, I feel as though it is bringing us closer together. We are talking a lot more, and it seems like we're more honest with each other. That seems weird, but I guess it's because we are forced to talk a lot more if we want to keep close. We don't take things for granted, such as conversation times. We actually cherish the times we get to talk via IM or whatnot. And we both wait impatiently for emails from each other. I feel like we have things to talk about and I know I love him more each day.
Emailing is great. I feel we're more honest that way because there is no "tone" so we don't get upset over nothing. Being across the world from each other is not a time where you want to fight or get in little disagreements over a tone of voice. Haha. Believe me, we did that a couple times and that just wasn't cool!! Email, we can say anything and if the other person is upset, then we have to write an entire email first lol. By that point, we normally calm down and can have a good conversation. If it was purely a disagreement on the phone, we'd be hanging up, redialing, and hanging up again several times! That's just how we work : )
We have gotten a lot better though about getting along. I don't know, I love him, he loves me, that's all there is to it. Anyhow, I am soooo exhausted. I will write more later. I hope you all are having a great week! Love you all and miss you guys! xoxo
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I know what you mean about the communication thing. This is Josh and my fifth bout of separation in our relationship (this includes pre-marriage), and it is a growing process. I've found that, somehow, this makes the time when we're together even more of a joy. It's difficult, but in the long run, the hard work is worth it. Love you!
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