I have been at war with myself for a few years. I never knew what I wanted to do. When I look back on the little girl that first learned how to play, I realize that I do love playing! It was always such a thrill and something I was good at. It wasn't until later that I actually appreciated the talent I was given. I wasn't sure if that was what I REALLY wanted to do. There are so many other areas of study I am interested in--Astronomy, International Relations, Math. I guess part of my thoughts on becoming a music major was all the time and money that was invested by my parents. I know that's a horrible reason to choose something, but I was so lost.
After moving back to DC and taking a year off of study, I realized that music is where I am supposed to be. It is my one true calling. I love playing, I am growing to appreciate practicing, and I still love performing. I am finally ready to buckle down and be the responsible music major, haha. It just makes me so happy to be playing again. I have also found a great deal of change in my practice sessions and how quickly I learn things.
Yesterday I had my first rehearsal with Mio, the staff accompianist and she's phenomenal! I was really nervous, but once I relaxed and everything, it sounded amazing! It was great to perform again, even if it was just a rehearsal. It was great just playing again. You don't realize how much you love something until you don't do it for a while. I am so thankful that I have realized how much I love playing, and that music is my calling!
On a lighter note, my improvistation skills still aren't the greatest and today at 3PM the Fiddle Ensemble is supposed to be recording the Jig that we wrote...ahh, lol. Anyhow, hope everyone is having a good week so far, even though it's only Tuesday. Xoxo
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